Hawai'i calls......

I reside in Hawai'i. 

For how long? That's the same question I ask myself; and folks, I do not h ave an answer. 

The beauty here is mesmerizing. 

The vast ocean waters seem to beckon to me.

Begging me to run..

asking me to come and disappear within the horizon. 

 I find I'm still lost and directionless. 

I'm stuck in this whirl wind of where I am, and where I want to be. 

Lost in the battle of feigning an identity. 

Yet, I want to be there; in that invisible void where I'm left to my own solidarity. 

Alone long enough to find an introspection worth acting upon. 

A 'me' someone could fall for. 

The warm and humid heat of Hawai'i seems to forgive my directionless path, 

abounding me in friendships and the loyal Hawaiian beaches paving a path towards play, that for now I won't regret following. 

This summer is going to be one of learning. Of that I am sure- as my sister, whom is 5 years younger than I, has already shown me a course of fearless action and bold circumstance in grasping onto what life offers and riding the waves. 

For today.. Hawai'i is my home. 

Tomorrow.. may be my turn to ride those waves.. 

But for now.. who knows.